I never meant to hurt you. You are the last thing on this planet I want to hurt
you and your childlike belief in the good in all humans. I never wanted to hurt you. But I did.
I should have listened to you, dear friend. I should have taken the helmet off, I should have let you in my mind, as I had so many times before. But I couldn't. I couldn't stop my selfish desires. I let my lust for revenge get in the way of my love for you. And for that, I am sorry. I am truly sorry.
You claimed to know everything about me, once. Was it true? Did you know the way that your presence affected me? Could you tell that when you walked into a room, your radiant innocence shining, my heart skipped a beat? Could you tell that you invaded my thoughts, even as I lay with women you'll never meet? Could you tell that I loved you, even before you invited me into your house?
You turned me back into a man, Charles. You pulled the poison out of my heart, you showed me the true point between rage and serenity. You thought that it was my mother's memory, but it wasn't. It was the look in your eyes. The deep blue of your eyes...the way they drag me into them, the way I can stare into them for hours at a time...
You gave me everything, Charles. And I never repaid you.
I crippled you. I am the reason you'll never be able to walk again. I am the reason you'll never stand and say anything. I am the reason you can't move from the waist down. And I will never forgive myself for what I've done to you.
That's why I'm leaving
I can't look you in the eye
not after this. When you wake up, I'll be gone.
I'm sorry, Charles.
All my love,
I need you.
I love you.
You were wrong, Erik. You were so wrong.
Please, Erik. Please come home.
I miss you.